Saturday, December 31, 2011

Friday, December 30, 2011

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Day 130

Still to low to have chemo tomorrow. Frustrated.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Day 129

Went to yoga today. I am sore. I guess I'm a little out of shape for power yoga. Took a two hour nap too. That was amazing. So tomorrow I try again. I'm a little tired of being stuck in the arm. Let's hope I am finally ready so Friday I can get his over with. I need closure.

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Day 128

We had a wonderful Christmas. Spent some really nice time with family. Tomorrow is supposed to be my last treatment. My counts have got to be good by now. Almost there.
Check out the new coffee mug Santa brought me.
This just in...still too low for treatment. We'll try again for Friday. Disappointed again.

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Day 122

I was hoping today was my last chemo.  No such luck.  I showed up at 8am for lab because my counts were really low yesterday.  They called me in and I was all ready to go...took my prescriptions and everything.  Then they came in and told me my counts were to low to have chemo.  I guess it would put me at too much risk of infection.  Not enough white cells to fight things off.  So I'm delayed one week.  I guess on the bright side I should be feeling pretty well for Christmas and I won't have to worry as much about seeing so many people around the holidays and getting sick.  I also had a really fun day today hanging out with Rob and Tammy.  We had a nice lunch.  I had a couple of drinks which was a treat.  :)
So there you have it.  All is not lost.

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Day 116

Home sweet home.  All went went.  I didn't need a transfusion, so that was kind of a relief.  I came home today to dinner and this Yule Log.  :)

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Day 115

In the hospital. Just finished my last dose of methotrexate. So far so good.
Looks like I will be getting a blood transfusion in the morning since my counts are really low. That should put a spring in my step to get through the last treatment. Thanks to everyone for your positive thoughts today. Pretty sure that's why I'm doing so well.

Monday, December 12, 2011


Got the tree up this weekend.  I still hava a decent amount of stuff to get done for Chirstmas, but thankfully there is online shopping.

Friday, December 9, 2011

Day 110

Long week. Neulasta kicked my ass. Starting to feel better and getting ready to fight the fight for the next few weeks. So close.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Day 107

It's the final countdown.

I am getting so close to the end of this now.  How many days do I have left?  Let's see...15!  Until my last treatment, that is.  I have to go into the hospital a week from tomorrow for methotrexate and then a week after that it's my last outpatient.  Whoohoo.
This past weekend was so busy.  It was Ridley's forth birthday.  We had a great time.  The party was at the Little Gym in Danvers.  All the kids were so well behaved and Ridley scored some seriously cool birthday gifts.  I can't believe he is four.
The past couple of days have been tiring.  I have been a little wasted from the treatment last week.  It is so hard to get any rest when you have two small kids.  There is very little down time.  If my parents weren't here I don't know what I would do.  I was able to nap today while my mom watched the kids.  I was out of my mind tired.  I really can't wait for this to be over.  How many times have I said that?  :)

Kara and Mark brought us dinner Sunday night.  Kara finally got to meet Violet.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Day 101

Here are yeterday's photos.  That is the view from the cancer center and then...well, that is the cancer center...obviously.

These are the shoes for cycle 5.  Went with comfort again.  All went well.  2 more to go.  I got my December calendar of appts. today and I looooove that it is my last calendar.  :)

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Day 100

Well, back at it tomorrow.  My vacation is over.  But the good news is that in three weeks I will be finished with treatment.  :)  It's going to fly by.
I've already started Christmas shopping.  I am all about amazon this year.  So excited for Christmas this year.

I can't get my photos to post.  Have to put them up later...

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Day 98

At the beginning of restorative yoga we write down our thoughts and we are supposed to reflect on the piece of paper during the class.  This was my paper tonight:

And here are a couple of cute photos from this past weekend.  We went to the tree farm with Rob's family in CT.  Ridley wouldn't let us take any photos with him, but Violet was into it.

Nice moustache Rob.  He grew it out this month for a prostate cancer fund raiser.

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Friday, November 18, 2011

Day 89

Am typing this with my new iPad? Hell yeah I am. I was dizzy this morning so they gave me fluids at the clinic. Guess I was dehydrated. Anyway, I feel better now but I guess my white cell counts are very low right now which is probably making me feel kinda crappy. Other than that today was uneventful. I was at the clinic for 2 hours and of course I didn't have the iPad with me. I didn't expect to be there so long. It would have been the perfect thing to have with me. Oh, well. Next time, right? So FYI, The Green Foundation is doubling donations to The American Cancer Society until December 15. I figured it was a good time for me to give back. I do owe them...big.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Day 88

I spent most of yesterday in bed. Which was good, although I did feel like crap. I got some rest so I could go into Mullen today and see my peeps. I had lunch with the ladies and then they had a surprise for me. They used the money from the bake sale they had for me to buy me an ipad. :) I couldn't believe it. On top of that they gave me money for apps etc. AND, yes, there is an and, a trip to Orlando for the four of us and three nights stay there! AND spending money. It was like I won the Showcase Showdown. Thank you so much to all my Mullen friends. I work at an amazing agency. They had an album for me too that was full of notes with well wishes on them. I love it. It was really nice to see a bunch of people I work with while I was there. I've missed my pre-cancer life. Soon enough it will be back to normal.

Now to go to bed. I am done for the day. Overwhelmed.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Day 86

I took a blog break. Things are going well. The weekend was beautiful. We had a lot of fun spending time outside. Today we managed to get some good outside time too. I kept thinking it was going to rain...but it didn't. I'm feeling tired today. This seems to be the way it goes. I get tired and start to feel like I'm coming down with something the week after chemo. It will pass.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Monday, November 7, 2011

Day 78

So...78 days since I was told I had cancer. In remission. Relief, relief, relief. I knew it! I have been feeling so good since I got over my MTX treatment. I told myself this was going to be the case today. I actually imagined my doctor telling's gone. And my dream came true. It sucks that I have to finish out chemo, but I understand that it's what I have to do to be on the safe side. According to my doctor they just don't know for sure if I am good to go, so we have to be thorough and finish out treatment. It's okay though. I have to go Wednesday and then I get three weeks off! Then it's cycle 5, then 15 days later MTX hospital stay again, then 7 days later cycle 6 and THE END! December 21st.

Thank you to everyone who has sent me their positive energy and put me in their prayers, and/or bought me and my family dinner, brought me flowers, sent me a card, a text, an email, a facebook message, threw me a bake sale, donated to my wellness fund, came to my house and cooked for me, or was just there offering me the support I have needed so far. I am so grateful today.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Day 76

Mobile PET scan unit. Yeah, those are my feet. Chilled out and tried to nap while I waited for my body to become radioactive. I even got a blanket. Pretty weird. Can't wait until Monday when I hear my results. No more cancer, no more cancer, no more cancer.

Terri brought over this awesome hood/hat/scarf that she knitted me. I looove it. It's so beautiful. Can't wait to wear it. I also came home to more food. What a day. I feel pretty special. :)

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Day 74

I got to go home early! They discharged me at 2:30pm today. I just had to promise to take my pills and drink my water. So I get to sleep in my bed tonight. Treatment went well, no hitches. I feel just fine. PET scan Saturday and more chemo next week then I get a cancer vacation for three weeks!

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Day 74

So here I sit in the penthouse at Salem Hospital with Rob. I'm waiting to start my methotrexate treatment. My favorite nurse Laura is here and she hooked me up with the best room on the floor. I have a killer view of the harbor and hard wood floors. Fancy shmacy.
Since I'm sitting here with nothing to do, I figured I would explain how I discovered I had cancer in the first place. I realized looking back that I never actually posted about that. So here is the story.
I was sitting on the couch watching TV sometime in August and I had just finished nursing Violet. My breast had this sore area on it and a lump and I thought it must be a blocked duct or a cyst or something from nursing. So I mentioned it to Rob and he said I should go get it checked out. I was all, "yeah, whatev. I'm sure it's nothing". I had also had this unexplained pain in my chest and shoulder. It was so bad I couldn't lie on either shoulder without excruciating pain in my chest. I thought I had pulled a muscle. The weird thing is it came and went a few times over the course of a few months and would last for a few days at a time. So I didn't do anything more about it for a couple of weeks when he asked, "Is that still there. Are you going to have it looked at?" I had a yearly appointment anyway with my family doctor so I figured he could check it out there. My doctor advised an ultrasound for a couple of weeks later, thinking it would probably go away before then anyway. It didn't, and I had the ultrasound. They said it looked benign, probably nursing related but the only way to know for sure was to biopsy it. I really didn't want to go through with that, I mean, who wants a needle jabbed in her boob, right? But I decided this wasn't just about me. I have two kids that depend on me and I had better suck it up and do it. And I did. Then no one called me with any results and it had been four days and I got a letter in the mail telling me I had a follow up appointment that Friday. I started getting nervous. I got on the phone and called Beverly Hospital to see why I had to come in and why they just couldn't follow up on the phone to tell me nothing was wrong. Well, that was because something was wrong. And so it began. Then there was a week where I thought I was going to die. I kept looking at my babies and I would start to cry thinking I was going to leave them and they would barely remember me. I spent some time in bed curled up crying and having anxiety attacks. Then I pulled it together and got busy. I started making plans. I spent a lot of time on the phone figuring out what I was supposed to do next. I had a really odd experience the week prior to getting my test results. We were driving Ridley to Chuckie Cheese's in Danvers and I looked over at the building across the street. It was the Outpatient building for MGH Northshore. I had no idea there was a cancer center in the back or the building. I had this weird feeling I was going to be spending a lot of time there. I can't explain it. I then discovered I had been referred to Dr. Erica Linden who was an oncologist at this very hospital. I decided this was a sign that she was supposed to be my doctor. I went with it and I was right. She is amazing. The perfect oncologist for me. Trust your gut. After I met with her I knew this was all going to be ok. In the meantime I had started to really feel like shit. It's strange how I got a diagnosis and it's like my body started falling apart. The shoulder and back pain was horrible and I had the shakes all the time. All I wanted to do was get started on treatment immediately.
So here is the lesson for anyone reading this. If you feel any lumps on your body GO TO SEE YOUR DOCTOR. Don't worry about being a hypochondriac, this is your life. You just never know and better to find out early. I wish I had known sooner but my other masses were behind my sternum and in my lungs. I was stage 4. I say "was" because I know in my heart of hearts that when I go to get my PET scan results on Monday she is going to tell me this lymphoma bullshit is out of me and the rest of the treatment is an insurance policy. So let's all believe that this is going to be the case...and then it will happen. Sound good? Does to me. Last treatment is December 21. Merry Christmas...fuck you cancer.

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Day 73

Sorting out the candy. Halloween was fun. Ridley was Spiderman and Violet was a strawberry.

I have to be to Salem Hospital at 6am tomorrow. Let the good times roll. Sodium Bicarbonate every 4 hours until then. After this....halfway through.

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Day 72

Restorative yoga tonight. Trying to prepare myself mentally for Wednesday. Not looking forward to my methotrexate hospital visit. Yeah, I'm over it. It's getting old really fast. This weekend I have been obsessing over when I will be finished. I have this image of a calendar that keeps popping into my head that has all the dates of all the shit I have to do before I am through with this. I just want to get through it as fast as I can. I wish I could do every treatment in a week so I would be finished. No such luck. I have another PET scan next weekend. I'm rewarding myself with a yoga workshop on Sunday for 2 hours that includes massage and lavandar eye pillows and essential oils. My fantasy is that the PET scan shows I'm already in remission and I can just walk away. Wouldn't that be nice? I can dream, right?

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Day 70

F U cancer. I went to a Halloween party. So, there.

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Day 69

My neighbor stopped by yesterday with some really cool daisies and cards and gift certificates to the Organic Garden. I wish I had been here but I had gone out for a bit. So nice.
Today I decided I was finally going to try a recipe from the Whole Living magazine I get every month. So I made acorn squash stuffed with organic quinoa with pistachios, feta, and parsley with a pork roast that was coated in garlic and rosemary and served with a white wine reduction sauce. Chef Bethany was in the house. I have to say it was damn good.
Now I'm ready to relax. The bone pain is pretty bad. Just trying to push through it and keep on moving. It's not easy to walk. Hopefully it will be gone by tomorrow.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Day 67

I love this. It's at the Organic Cafe in Bevely. One of my favorite restaurants. Sooo good.

Monday, October 24, 2011

Day 66

Sorry if I freaked anyone out about my bone pain. Yikes! It is minor and is a result of the nuelasta shot I had last week. It's not a bad thing, though. The aching is in the joints because that is where all the new healthy cells are being created. So no worries there.
Today was a good day. Busy with the kids all day. We did a lot of watercolor painting this morning. Then we did some errands and went to the playground. It got really cold, though, later in the day. There is a fire in the fireplace tonight.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Day 65

Back again. Thank you for all the meals that have been sent (Liza, Kim, Jamee and Caitlin)...
And I also received a very nice note from my Aunt Edna and Uncle Chet and my bro Andy. Both very much appreciated and very kind. How may times did I just use the word very?
I laid low this weekend. Pretty tired. I guess that happens sometimes, like you get a bit more tired with each treatment. I also have a little bone pain from the cells that are growing in my joints. But it's not too terrible. The shot itself hurt like a bitch, but no pain no gain. FU cancer. yeah, that's right.
We went for a walk in Salem today. It was fun. Super halloweenie. It was a really nice day. And it is indeed fall now. Ridley and Violet have colds so we spent the rest of the day resting. Hopefully I won't get it too. I have to be careful of such things.
Bath time was hilarious tonight. Violet LOOOOOVES the big tub and thinks her brother is just the funniest thing on earth. How can I be down with these two clowns around?

I missed Jasper a lot this weekend. It was really hitting me. I keep thinking I see both the cats and hear them in the house. I guess noises I thought were them before were other things. I miss my naps with Jasper and how he would sit next to me while I gave Violet her bottle before bed. Sigh.

Friday, October 21, 2011

Day 63

Tired. Yes, tired. Slept. Spaced out. MGH called me at 5:00. They had forgotten to give me my neulasta injection. Joy. Off to the clinic. Cancer is annoying me today. But it isn't winning.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Day 62

I slept in until 9:30 thanks to my parents taking care of getting the kids off to school. We went to the Depot Diner for lunch. The food was really good. Then I went to acupuncture which made me feel a lot better and well enough to walk home from the appointment. Only about a mile but not bad for the day after chemo. Rachel came over for dinner. She brought us Shepherd's Pie and it was excellent. Everyone is super full. Now I'm ready for bed. No pic today.

Day 61

OFUC was back in action today. Jen went with me for treatment. We had fun looking at magazines and surfing the net. It went by pretty fast. 9am to 2pm. I have to say I felt like I was hit with a wrecking ball after. Ok, maybe that is an exaggeration. But I was very tired. I'm wondering if it was because I have my acupuncture appt. scheduled for after instead of before this time. Also Hugo, the auricular acupuncture guy wasn't in at the clinic yesterday. All in all itg went well. Liza and Kim sent over chicken noodle soup and some bread and cookies. The soup was perfect.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Day 60

Violet loves the swing. Grampy pushed her until she puked. I'm not kidding. Off to bed. Need a good night of rest before tomorrow.

Monday, October 17, 2011

Day 59

Vacation is over tomorrow. Lab at 8:30am and then pre-chemo visit. Wednesday...chemo. But then I will be half way done with R-CHOP. Then 2 more methotrexate and bye bye lymphoma...forever.

Beautiful day today. Ridley is riding his bike with training wheels. Violet is crawling all over the place trying to eat anything off the floor she can find.

I don't have photoshop on this machine. Tilt your head to the left. I'll try and fix this tomorrow.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Day 58

I was in New Hampshire yesterday so I missed blogging. We drove up to Ossippee to celebrate Jackie and Juliet's Birthdays. Ridley had a great time bouncing on the trampoline and eating cake.
Today we cleaned the cars. Exciting stuff. Cheerios, raisins and goldfish, oh, my. Yeah, it was pretty gross. I made some stuffed peppers after that. They didn't come out so great. I should have stuffed more rice in them and used some egg to bind them. They tasted good though, so whatever.
Restoritive yoga after that. It was hard tonight for some reason. Maybe because I went for a long walk today already. Or maybe she was pushing us harder tonight.

Today's photo: the door of love. These are my cards. I look to them if I feel tired or sick. They have helped me immensely.

Friday, October 14, 2011

Day 56

So today I learned that there was a bake sale at work for me. They are giving me some kind of gift and using the money that they earned. I am so touched. And honored. I don't even know what to say. People have been so caring and generous. I am so thankful.

I have been on vacation from cancer. Or at least I'm calling it that. I don't have another treatment until next week on Wednesday. I had three weeks off from treatments. A much needed break. Next week OFUC is back in action. Don't worry. I will be kicking some ass.

Isabelle, Jay and Kinsey were over tonight. Isabelle cooked us another delicious meal. I am soooo full.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Day 55

Oops. Forgot to post yesterday. I have been on a bit of a cleaning and organzing rampage while I have the energy to do it. Nothing much to report. No photo today. I'm slacking. Maybe all my cleaning has to do with my cat dying. The house seems so different now that I have to make other changes too. Just a thought.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Day 53

Started out the day at the neuro opthamologist. I guess they REALLY wanted to be sure that nothing was wrong with my eyes after that mtx treatment. And nothing is wrong. My dad and I grabbed a cup of coffee before the appt.

Then I had to rush home to meet the Vet. She made what could have been horrible bearable. Jasper went very peacefully in his favorite spot...the sofa. Having her come to the house was the best thing I could have done given the circumstances. He is now in kitty heaven with Pee Wee. I hope I spared him any pain.

Monday, October 10, 2011

Day 52

Yeah...went to the beach again. Our favorite...Wingaersheek. It was beautiful. Ridley spent a lot of time hugging Jasper today. I guess he kind of has an idea that the end is drawing near. The vet is coming here tomorrow. I hope I'm doing the right thing. It's so hard to know.

Day 51

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Day 50

So I'm sitting here looking at Jasper sitting on the kitchen chair beside me knowing that I have to have him put down in two days. This just sucks. Seriously. I can't believe I'm going through this again just two months after Pee Wee. I took him to the Feline Hospital and they were kind enough to look at what was going on free of charge. He has a mass in his intestines and he is building up fluid rapidly. So I'm trying to get Dr. Death to come to my house so I don't have to bring him in. I think it may make it a little easier on me to be at home. Sigh. Fuck. Sigh.

Anyway, I will try to cheer up looking at this cute photo of Ridley from his bath tonight. Check out that massive bubble pile.

Friday, October 7, 2011

Day 49

This is the way we wash our wig
Wash our wig
Wash our wig
This is the way we wash our wig
When it starts to get kinda funky

Yes, it's wig washing day. She is going to dry on the counter overnight. I hope I can make the thing look half decent tomorrow. I'll have to whip out the ol' flat iron.

I'm listening to Ridley laughing his ass off right now while Rob plays him clips of the Swedish Chef from the Muppet Show on his iphone.

My parents and I took Violet for a long walk today while Ridley was at school. It was the longest walk I've taken in a while. Probably about 3 miles, so that was good. I should try and do it more often now that I'm feeling up to it.

I received a really sweet care package from Shoshanna yesterday. A book, cards, lotions and a MANICURE among other things. I was truly touched by her kindness. I also loved her card. She crossed out "with sympathy" and wrote "fuck you cancer" instead. that's right cancer. fuck off, will ya?

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Day 48

I missed yesterday. Doh! We went to Mindi and Josh's for dinner in Quincy and by the time I got home I was spent. We had a lot of fun. I really miss hanging out with Mindi. It was great to see her again. The house they are renting is spectacular.
I sat up from 3:30 to 6am today with horrific heart burn. I watched Crazy Sexy Cancer finally, so at least I used my time wisely. How funny that she grew wheatgrass in the movie and I was just talking about that. I really would love to try and grow it. It sounds pretty easy to do.
Rachel came over for dinner tonight. I showed off my new Anna Chocola originals. Hats, that is. Rachel wanted to steal one of mine, and then I informed her that it had happened to me once already at the hospital to her surprise. Yes, someone stole the red hat from me, but I loved it so much I ordered it again. Anna was kind enough to send me a bonus turban. Super cool. Here are the hats:

My favorite is the hat with the elephant bow. They are all handmade. They're perfect because I can take a break from my wig and you can't really tell I am bald. Thanks Anna!

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Day 46

I was wayyyyy too tired to post last night. Yesterday was a crazy day. It started out with the flash flood yesterday. That was insane. Crazy crazy. I had to be at Mass Eye and Ear at 9am to get my eyes checked because of my weird vision problem that occurred after the methotrexate. God, that place is a freak show. It's like the DMV of eyes. I can't believe I didn't have to take a number. Anyway, my eyes are great so no worries there. Then we had to go to MGH North to see the RN since I've had this sore throat or a couple of days and an ear ache. I guess my counts are pretty low right now, so I'm probably just reacting to that. I was given some antibiotics so hopefully that will help. Then it was off to acupuncture which was a welcome break from the day. I felt great after I left. A huge difference. I stopped at the Organic Garden on the way home and tried out their drink called the Hemoglobin. I talked to Bryn about wheatgrass at my acupuncture appt. and he is a huge advocate so I figured I'd give it a shot. No pun intended. "Amazing blood and body builder recommended in Steve Arlin’s Raw Power young coconut water ‘blood plasma’ and wheatgrass ‘hemoglobina’." It tasted absolutely disgusting. I have to say it may have been one of the worst things I've ever tasted. But hey, I choked it down and I bet it was really good for me. Then it was off to the vet with Jasper. (I told you it was a long day). He is not doing well. He hasn't eaten in a week. The vet said he has thickening of the intestines and he has a mass in his digestive tract. uhhhhhhhh. I can't deal with this right now. I just lost Pee Wee two months ago. I know he is 15, but still. They did a bunch of tests so we'll see today what is going on. Hopefully there is some medication that will get him eating again.
So there you have it. That was yesterday. No photo. I'll take one today...promise.

Monday, October 3, 2011

Day 45

oops. I think I made two day 43s. Doh!
Anyway. I feel kind of shitty today. I have a sore throat and I'm tired. Not to mention not taking the steroids anymore kind of leaves me a little, um, bitchy? I think I need to go to bed. Hopefully my sore throat will be gone tomorrow.
Violet was so cute in her bath tonight. She is such an angel.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Day 43

We went to the Galbreath's for lunch and they served us up some delicious food. Ridley and Grace had a great hang (his girlfriend...awwww) and got ready for Halloween. The adults relaxed.
Went to restorative yoga at Empower tonight. That class is so amazing. It feels different doing yoga bald. I was totally in the zone. Maybe that is what is behind all the monks shaving their heads?

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Day 43

Went to a bike race today in Gloucester. The rain finally stopped and it turned out to be a good day. After the bike race we headed over to the Frazier's for their annual open house. It was good to be out and to see some friends. I still feel well today. Tired? Yes. But good.


Friday, September 30, 2011

Day 42

Hey, I didn't take a photo today. Oh, well. I just sort of didn't get to it. I'm very tired today. Noelle came over and hung out with me and we made some carrot, beet, spinach and apple juice. It made me feel a bit better. Then my neighbor stopped by and brought me all this delicious food from Henry's. Soups, breads, jams and all kind of goodies. We have awesome neighbors. We have awesome friends. We're lucky.
Ok, I have to go to bed. Photo tomorrow...promise.

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Day 41

Rachel, Jesse and Sarah came over and made us pizza for dinner tonight. mmm mmm. So good. And Rachel made a delicious dessert. We had a wig out. Here are the pics....

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Day 40

My new best friend. I think I'll call him R2-D2. Had fun at chemo today. Yeah, that's right. Fun. Tammy came with me and we played scrabble and talked knitting. I'm pretty tired right now but I feel ok. Will be hitting the sack early, for sure.

Auricular Acupuncture is offered for free at MGH Northshore. The guy gives an amazing foot rub.