Thursday, December 29, 2011
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Check out the new coffee mug Santa brought me.
This just in...still too low for treatment. We'll try again for Friday. Disappointed again.
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Looks like I will be getting a blood transfusion in the morning since my counts are really low. That should put a spring in my step to get through the last treatment. Thanks to everyone for your positive thoughts today. Pretty sure that's why I'm doing so well.
Monday, December 12, 2011
Friday, December 9, 2011
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
I am getting so close to the end of this now. How many days do I have left? Let's see...15! Until my last treatment, that is. I have to go into the hospital a week from tomorrow for methotrexate and then a week after that it's my last outpatient. Whoohoo.
This past weekend was so busy. It was Ridley's forth birthday. We had a great time. The party was at the Little Gym in Danvers. All the kids were so well behaved and Ridley scored some seriously cool birthday gifts. I can't believe he is four.
The past couple of days have been tiring. I have been a little wasted from the treatment last week. It is so hard to get any rest when you have two small kids. There is very little down time. If my parents weren't here I don't know what I would do. I was able to nap today while my mom watched the kids. I was out of my mind tired. I really can't wait for this to be over. How many times have I said that? :)
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
I've already started Christmas shopping. I am all about amazon this year. So excited for Christmas this year.
I can't get my photos to post. Have to put them up later...
Sunday, November 27, 2011
And here are a couple of cute photos from this past weekend. We went to the tree farm with Rob's family in CT. Ridley wouldn't let us take any photos with him, but Violet was into it.
Nice moustache Rob. He grew it out this month for a prostate cancer fund raiser.
Friday, November 18, 2011
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
I took a blog break. Things are going well. The weekend was beautiful. We had a lot of fun spending time outside. Today we managed to get some good outside time too. I kept thinking it was going to rain...but it didn't. I'm feeling tired today. This seems to be the way it goes. I get tired and start to feel like I'm coming down with something the week after chemo. It will pass.
Monday, November 7, 2011
So...78 days since I was told I had cancer. In remission. Relief, relief, relief. I knew it! I have been feeling so good since I got over my MTX treatment. I told myself this was going to be the case today. I actually imagined my doctor telling me...it's gone. And my dream came true. It sucks that I have to finish out chemo, but I understand that it's what I have to do to be on the safe side. According to my doctor they just don't know for sure if I am good to go, so we have to be thorough and finish out treatment. It's okay though. I have to go Wednesday and then I get three weeks off! Then it's cycle 5, then 15 days later MTX hospital stay again, then 7 days later cycle 6 and THE END! December 21st.
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Restorative yoga tonight. Trying to prepare myself mentally for Wednesday. Not looking forward to my methotrexate hospital visit. Yeah, I'm over it. It's getting old really fast. This weekend I have been obsessing over when I will be finished. I have this image of a calendar that keeps popping into my head that has all the dates of all the shit I have to do before I am through with this. I just want to get through it as fast as I can. I wish I could do every treatment in a week so I would be finished. No such luck. I have another PET scan next weekend. I'm rewarding myself with a yoga workshop on Sunday for 2 hours that includes massage and lavandar eye pillows and essential oils. My fantasy is that the PET scan shows I'm already in remission and I can just walk away. Wouldn't that be nice? I can dream, right?
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Thursday, October 27, 2011
My neighbor stopped by yesterday with some really cool daisies and cards and gift certificates to the Organic Garden. I wish I had been here but I had gone out for a bit. So nice.
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Monday, October 24, 2011
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Friday, October 21, 2011
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Monday, October 17, 2011
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Today we cleaned the cars. Exciting stuff. Cheerios, raisins and goldfish, oh, my. Yeah, it was pretty gross. I made some stuffed peppers after that. They didn't come out so great. I should have stuffed more rice in them and used some egg to bind them. They tasted good though, so whatever.
Restoritive yoga after that. It was hard tonight for some reason. Maybe because I went for a long walk today already. Or maybe she was pushing us harder tonight.
Today's photo: the door of love. These are my cards. I look to them if I feel tired or sick. They have helped me immensely.
Friday, October 14, 2011
I have been on vacation from cancer. Or at least I'm calling it that. I don't have another treatment until next week on Wednesday. I had three weeks off from treatments. A much needed break. Next week OFUC is back in action. Don't worry. I will be kicking some ass.
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Then I had to rush home to meet the Vet. She made what could have been horrible bearable. Jasper went very peacefully in his favorite spot...the sofa. Having her come to the house was the best thing I could have done given the circumstances. He is now in kitty heaven with Pee Wee. I hope I spared him any pain.
Monday, October 10, 2011
Yeah...went to the beach again. Our favorite...Wingaersheek. It was beautiful. Ridley spent a lot of time hugging Jasper today. I guess he kind of has an idea that the end is drawing near. The vet is coming here tomorrow. I hope I'm doing the right thing. It's so hard to know.
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Anyway, I will try to cheer up looking at this cute photo of Ridley from his bath tonight. Check out that massive bubble pile.
Friday, October 7, 2011
This is the way we wash our wig
Wash our wig
Wash our wig
This is the way we wash our wig
When it starts to get kinda funky
Yes, it's wig washing day. She is going to dry on the counter overnight. I hope I can make the thing look half decent tomorrow. I'll have to whip out the ol' flat iron.
I'm listening to Ridley laughing his ass off right now while Rob plays him clips of the Swedish Chef from the Muppet Show on his iphone.
My parents and I took Violet for a long walk today while Ridley was at school. It was the longest walk I've taken in a while. Probably about 3 miles, so that was good. I should try and do it more often now that I'm feeling up to it.
I received a really sweet care package from Shoshanna yesterday. A book, cards, lotions and a MANICURE among other things. I was truly touched by her kindness. I also loved her card. She crossed out "with sympathy" and wrote "fuck you cancer" instead. that's right cancer. fuck off, will ya?
Thursday, October 6, 2011
I sat up from 3:30 to 6am today with horrific heart burn. I watched Crazy Sexy Cancer finally, so at least I used my time wisely. How funny that she grew wheatgrass in the movie and I was just talking about that. I really would love to try and grow it. It sounds pretty easy to do.
Rachel came over for dinner tonight. I showed off my new Anna Chocola originals. Hats, that is. Rachel wanted to steal one of mine, and then I informed her that it had happened to me once already at the hospital to her surprise. Yes, someone stole the red hat from me, but I loved it so much I ordered it again. Anna was kind enough to send me a bonus turban. Super cool. Here are the hats:
My favorite is the hat with the elephant bow. They are all handmade. They're perfect because I can take a break from my wig and you can't really tell I am bald. www.annachocola.com. Thanks Anna!
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
So there you have it. That was yesterday. No photo. I'll take one today...promise.
Monday, October 3, 2011
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Saturday, October 1, 2011
Friday, September 30, 2011
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Auricular Acupuncture is offered for free at MGH Northshore. The guy gives an amazing foot rub.