Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Day 13

I bought some flowers today for our planter. The house needed some color and I figured some gardening would be fun. Yesterday I received the results of my bone marrow biopsy. NEGATIVE!!!! That is a huge relief. They didn't find anything new in my scans either. I have felt really good the past couple of days. Must be all the sleep, yoga and positive energy flowing my way. Tomorrow I have my wig fitting and Friday is port insertion day. Gross. It was such a nice day today. I hope this good weather continues.

Today I'm grateful for my negative test results and all the friends that have supported me in OFUC. I am going to be able to go to acupunture guilt free. :) I'm also grateful for ice cream. It's delicious.

Day 12

Monday, August 29, 2011

Day 11

Today was not an easy day. I started the day with a PET scan and a CAT scan. I then got a nice little break to enjoy the beautiful weather and came home for a bit to take an atavan and an oxycodon in prep for my bone marrow biopsy. I wore my threadbare Joy Division t-shirt from high school for good luck (?). Well, it was comfy anyway. I have to say, I hope I NEVER have to do that biopsy again. Not a pleasant experience as you can imagine. But I focused on the importance of it in my treatment and on Rob (who's hand I nearly crushed). At least it was relatively quick. Now I get a few days to just relax and try to take care of myself before we start chemo. I hope to go have some fun as soon as the pain goes away. Hopefully tomorrow. It's going to be ok. Cured by Christmas.

Things I am grateful for today:
My husband.
My best friend.
My children.
My parents.
My curable cancer (some people aren't so lucky).
All of my friends and family who have shown me so much support and it's just the beginning.
This day. (regardless of all the physical pain).

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Day 9

Day 8

I went to Salon at 10 Newbury with Leonie and Kara to order a wig. The woman there did an amazing job. I never realized how expensive a wig is. The girls made the experience fun, as I knew they would. This wig is going to be hot. :)

Day 7

I met my oncologist for the first time. I was scared and excited at the same time. I really liked her. She explained my diagnosis more clearly. Lymphoma, she explained, is cancer of the immune system. It is a blood cancer. In me it has presented itself in lymph nodes in my breast, chest and sternum. I have diffused large B-cell lymphoma. It is classified as Non-Hodgkins. My treatment will consist of six chemotherapy sessions using a combination of drugs they refer to as R-CHOP. I will receive a treatment every three weeks...a total of 18 weeks. I was actually relieved to hear this. I know some cancer patients have to have many more treatments than I will. My goal; cured by Christmas. We are now referring to my treatment as "Operation: Fuck You Cancer." I will win this battle, you can be sure of that.

Day 6

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Day 5

My parents surprised me with a visit today. I'm so happy they are here with me. It's so much easier to go through all of this when you are surrounded by those you love. CAT scan today. 2 pints of barium. So gross. But I survived it and am now scheduled to meet my oncologist on Thursday. I have a good feeling about her. Everything is going to be ok.

Monday, August 22, 2011

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Friday, August 19, 2011

365 Days

I haven't blogged in quite some time. I gave birth to Violet almost 7 months ago from today and since then I've been so wrapped up in my family and working and everything else, that I've neglected this space.

I received some startling news today. It would seem I have lymphoma. What is lymphoma? It's cancer of the lymph nodes. I am trying hard to understand how this happened to me and why. There is no answer, but I do know that it is curable and I am going to get through this. I am thankful that I have such wonderful family and friends that will be here to help me.

My goal is to begin taking a photo a day, from today when I received my diagnosis. I hope that this project will give me some distraction from what I understand is going to be the hardest year of my life.